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Name: Phillip
Country: United States
State: California
Metro: Riverside
Birthday: 10/30/1990
Gender: Male
Interests: My Family- Medical- My Future- Finishing College- Mythology- My House- NJROTC- Business- Art- $$MONEY$$- Girls- and Family(the most important thing in the world to me)
Expertise: Medical \/ Taking Care of Family \/ Taking Care of House \/ Myhtolgy \/ School (even though I don't really like it that much) \/ Procrastinating \/ Annoying Others \/ Being a Gentelman \/ Being a psychopath (at some time) \/ Being Wise And Stupid At the Same Time \/ Singing \/ Philosophy (certain ares) \/
Occupation: Medical
Industry: Business
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  EACaliboy
AIM:  LonliSamurai
Yahoo:  phillipvan2002@yahoo.com
Member Since:
1/10/2004
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| Wading and seeing nothing new Afloat in this place of endless blue. I search to find, I search to see But again, it's only me. Looking to see but there is nothing, Hope is sure not coming. Wading and seeing nothing new I hope to find just a clue. Unable to see in this endless blue I think I'll sink waiting for you. - Wherever Whenever | | |
| It's not like me to be this..."ignorant" I actually fell into the moments of yesterday, forgetting what my priorities were, and the reuniting with friends...but among all of that...I lost something very important...I guess it's just the law of balance...for evey "good thing" that exists there must be a counterpart...and well, it seems like it's only gonna go down here from here. Regardless- Yesterday was my first day of fall quarter, and even though Iw as dropped from one of my seminars...my day still seemed to have flowed smoothly. I met many new friends, and some old ones. I was actually able to just relax for a while with no on reminding me of anything...of course my parents wouldn't stop calling, but still I did what I needed to do. Let's just say that I was in "5th Gear" then yesterday, I dropped to "3rd Gear"...It's not that I was becoming lazy, mroe like...well I have no excuses to say. I don't know why but I feel like there is a lot of sadness that will pass by today, and a lot of work ahead for me... Something that I put a lot of work into has jsut dissappeared....and I was careless...well, I'm supposed to meet up with someone in the library, but they're not here...I brought breakfast for them too haha....Well, let's just see how well I can rebound after my slip up. I really feel like I'm in a ditch....with quicksand....So I have to think through this very carefully, cuz my dad doesn't even know yet...haha... Honestly, yesterday was great, but I was just stupid. All the things she said are really affecting me and she doesn't even know haha... - All the things she said | | |
| I've been waking up early and going into the infrared sauna every morning...so far I lost a a good deal of weight and my health has been inclining. And since I've been waking up earlier, I have more time to do what I need, and unfortunately, also remember all the times that I wish to relive, but I don't wish to relive them because if they hadn't been that great, I wouldn't have remembered them. It seems that the only thing I have left is family, like all my ties to "friends" and the outside world... are all gone, not saying that family is a bad thing, I'm so happy that I can be with them cuz I know my time is running out and....
I just find it ironic...when people see me injured and those who see me injured a lot, I tend to tell them things like, "don't worry, I can't die, I'll always be here". And for some people who I really care about I tack on "...as long as I have a purpose", hinting to them that they are the ones that help me moving on, avoiding the things that people who give up do...and I wanna say thanks to them right now....even if we haven't seen each other in a while...
I don't think I live an ordinary life...everyday is ALWAYS different...but, I just want someone to share my great days with....someone, who I can listen to, talk to, and be with...
- You're gonna go far | | |
| day was pretty sweet...I was free, but dang it there was nothing to do...I tried calling some people, but only my sister picked up...then I went to my grandparents' house in Santa Ana...man every single moment that my bowl LOOKED empty..."ang di cong"! (i think I spelled that wrong) hahaha, but she kept on yelling at me to eat because grandma cooked it and she doesnt cook for us a lot and...just because...but it was pretty hilarious...my dad was off the hook since, he doesn't eat onions...and all the dishes, save for the sweet ones, had onions...so we as in my cousin and brother were eating till she said it's enough, while my dad got the watermelon and mangoes...haha...man chris was FULL haha, "Anh hai, I can't eat anymore" ---my reply..."You don't want grandma yelling at us right? so eat until Daddy says stop...or until she doesn't notice" ...hahah...she eventually said...while I was eatin still....since you can't finish everyhitng, just make sure you eat all the meat...I'm like crud...I've only been eating vegetables...and there's a lot of meat left...-so we all dug in.......
then to top it off, since my mom, sister, youngest brother, and 3 aunts we're eating with us...we went to get crawfish....i jsut sat at the table watching the tv at the restautrant...haha...but for the life of me, I can't forget that girl that I've had a crush on since sophomore year....grrr-it's bugging me....
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| If a dream tells you what you want or what you're thining in your subconsciousness, then man...I'm very imaginative, and I jsut can't forget soem people...I wonder why though...2 dreams, I'm finally with the girl I like...then my other dream...I'm a super hero...what the heck? haha. So this week has been eventful...I built 2 motorbikes with my dad and raced...and WON! boo yah! haha..but the second race....my bike broke apart...and to cut it short...my seat flipped back and knocked me in the groin...and my muffler blew off and burned my leg...oh, my dad and I also built an infra-red sauna!...it's hot! haha, but I forgot to change the breaker...so it still needs a little work...this weekend has been a blast thus far, BUT I gotta get back to work... Oh for halloween, I'm gonna make some crazy costume!...and a samurai suit for my little brother... I'm living a dream, but I wonder how long this'll last...I've been busy, but not like school busy, it's good, fun, life busy...btw does anyone ever read my blogs...or is this really gonna be like my own diary haha - I'm not over | | |
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